the bright side of you

I have so many things to do, and i have tonnes of deadlines coming up
But today, I told myself I must do what i've promised you, jog regularly
And so i did
While i was jogging, there were so many things running in my mind
Today you asked me to read more fashion magazines, i have the feeling,
Were you trying to transform me into another person
I started to feel stress whenever you called, because i have to act like the person you like
I started to wonder, do you love me at all
Or am i just an investment for you
Because you were looking for wife material, and coincidentally i'm not fake like how your exs were
So you'll just "invest" on me
You don't really like everything about me, do you?
 And another thought was, am I working hard for you or for myself?
Deep down inside my heart, i know that everything is for you
But i tried to denied, because I don't wanna live for anyone else but me
What if one day you left me?

I told you about my jogging stuff, i said i jogged for 30 mins instead of 40 mins
Then a long and huge sign from you, "har........"
As if i'm not doing well enough
I know i didn't achieve the standard you set for me, but does that really matter?
Its only a 10 mins differencee!
And, I AM YOUR GF, not your trainee.
I don't pay you to train me, i'm not someone that you'd train in order to make money from
I'm just a person that loves you so much
But i don't get anything besides cynical
I felt so disheartened and devastated
Don't you think you're too harsh on me?

Sometimes i really wonder, i'm not really as bad as what you always rant about
Why would i stay with someone that will constantly make me feel bad about myself?
Why am i so unhappy now.
This has never happened to me :(

OKAY THE PROBLEM SOLVED.
I misinterpreted your "har....." coz you didnt mean it that way
Its just misunderstanding :)

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 Baby when i asked you what are the good things that you can see in me
I'm really touched by your answers
I mean, you really put your effort to think about it
And i realize that you just know me so well, unlike my other friends
You said i wasn't ready to get into a relationship at the first place coz i have no time
You said that I used to be pampered by my family and i've becoming more independent ever since i left home
You said that i'm very hardworking, as I worked so hard to cope with the sg fast-paced living
Baby, most of them were my past, you were not there with me
But you're meticulous that you know it right away even when i didnt tell you
I'm so touched
There isn't a word to describe how much i fall for you
You're a kidnapper, you stole my heart :D

親愛的　我多麼幸運　人海中能夠遇見你

Baby i wanna protect our relationship
I know it will last
I wanna give my whole heart to you
I don't think i can take it back anymore
I love you