blogging has gradually becoming very important to me
not a good thing i guess, coz it means that i have no one to go for when i wanted to talk to someone else
have been trying to convince myself: pls pls allows positive energy to replace the negative ones
stop being emo
sometimes it just can't help
when life is getting more and more...SUCKY
and you didn't know whats this all about
coz they never anyhow make you happy
but still you have to do it
yes i'm talking about NUS
1am...
4am...
24 hrs...
28 hrs...
it should be the maximum length of time i stay awake
i shouldn't have stayed overnights
but due to the fact that i'm a super slow learner
yes i'm not talking cock, like really really "snailing" thru my books
i can spent like whole night for one subject, and not even exceeded more than two chapters
i should really really improve on this
by being a fast reader - mind process tgt at the same time with what i'm reading
and do not let negative emotion affects my days
all the times, i would feel demotivated/discouraged/demoralised coz i keep on realizing how WEAK am i in certain subjects
i know i should turn this into motivation, sometimes you just can't help
forcing yourself to be as the same level as your classmates
i really do feel like crying all the time
i really do feel like going home all the time
i really do feel like killing myself all the time
i really do feel like escaping from all these all the time
....
but no, i am no longer that naive girl who needs protection from family
and escape instead of dealing with the problems
which is why i am here
i have to accept the fact that i'm a bit stupid in studies
overcome it, and be more motivated
i wouldn't care what other people thinks about me
as long as i really really do my best
you can forgive yourself regardless of the outcome
provided you have already worked hard for it
jiayou!!!
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